Friday, 27 February 2009

Amazon

ok so im getn a few emails about the Amazon thing, nd guess some ppl think im a greedy twat. it was just a cool thing i saw on another blog, nd doesnt mean i expect ppl to tip. bt thanx 2 the ppl that have left a tip, even to the boy that gave me 10p :-) it all helps, cos life is expensive.

maybe ill put some pics up of the things i buy, so u can see how im spending ur money hehe :-P i promise not to waste it on toppin up my fone, jelly beans (which r my absolute fave), itunes, kfc nd clothes. actually thats a complete lie, cos that is exactly where th money will b wasted... i mean spent :-D

Tuesday, 24 February 2009

cold showers

well turns out i might not have broken the macbook, cud be a fault with a 'logic-board' or 'invertor' (what ever they are lol). went over to see nicholas last night, i didnt go commando (all ur dirty ppl that said i shuold tut tut), bt did wear my best pants nd had my jeans propr well low showin my bum, nd just held up at the front by my bulge. when i was walkin down the drive em was comin in an said 'who the fuck tought u how to dress' i was like wotever lol.

i like goin to see him, bt hate his door, cos there is a bell bt it either doesnt work or he never heres it, nd i never know how long to wait b4 pressin it again. was stood outside for ages, then tried knockin on the door with this metal thing above the letter box. then i think he saw me thru the window so he let me it. he was doin ironing, nd had shirts everywhere, he has well nice clothes, was lookn for some undies bt didnt see any lol. we went into his office nd he had a look at the mac book. i was sat next to him nd just lookn around at stuff on his desk, hed got a dvd called 'cold showers' or 'cold shower' - sounds well gay, bt then he put some papers over it nd couldnt really see it. sounds well like a porno dvd to me. he was well nice about it tho nd said i cud leave it with him for an hour.

when he brought it back over, he even told dad it was a known fault with some macbooks, nd wasnt anything id done. yay for me :-P he is gonna take it to the apple shop for me now cos he doesnt have new parts to fix it.

i deleted all the pix nd stuff cos not got any blank cds cos dont want nosey twats in apple store lookn at all my msn chats nd my pix.

thanx to ever1 for helpn nd sending msgs :-)

Monday, 23 February 2009

macbook=fcked

im in soooo muchh trouble :-( my macbook is fuckd, nd dad knows. he keeps telln me off for not been careful with it, nd saying im too rough, nd now the screen keeps like flashing nd flickering. he said if it breaks completely i cant have a new one cos im careless. hes such a twat nd always blames me for stuff, when i have lookd after it and never dropd it or anything. he was sayn your tv, ipod, phone, now laptop... 'you dont have any respect for your possessions, things that i work hard to pay for'. he got well angry nd his face went all red, he doesnt normally get like this nd so i know ive mega pissd him off.

gonna ask nicholas if he can fix it, cos ill die if it breaks nd im not allowed a new one. i fed his cats all last week, so he prolly wont mind lookn at it. im gonna go over 2nite cos he came back on sun, ill propr have my jean sagging nd wear some of my best undies, that shud help lol.

Thursday, 19 February 2009

mental things

ppl say boys have brains in their pants, well i think my brain was just left out all together. done something mega stupid nd worried dad is gonna find out im gay :-S theres someone on the net that emails me a lot, we chat sometimes nd he seems nice nd sends me some hot pix, nd links to vids and stuff. we were on msn for a bit tnoght nd he said hed give me cash if i posted him some undies. feels well embarrasin even writing it, bt to see if he was real i said send the money first, nd i tried to get a pay pal but couldnt. i sent him my address to post the cash now i keep thinkn what if he turns up nd tells dad what ive been doing and that im gay and stuff :-(

cant get back to sleep nd just wish id stop doin mental things.

Tuesday, 17 February 2009

jelly babies

cant write much cos not supposed to be on comp but got a lift from nicholas this morning, nd made him drive to get jamie too lol. nicholas was wearn a suit, nd lookd pretty buff. he normally just wears like funky stuff, even for his work, so it was a bit horny to see him all smart. he lookd like a celbrity lol. i was been a bit nosey nd lookn in his car, nd hed got jelly babies in the glovebox. yum. gg joshxx

Sunday, 15 February 2009

scary stuff

omg only just got up which is well not like me, cos im an early birdie normally. got in late tho, cos was at jamies until after 1ish. his mum is propr a wino agin. she came in and at first was nice, a bit ott but nice, she was givin me a hug, nd her tits were like all in my face (it was gross lol). shes quite fit, but shes a she lol. jamie had forgot to record casualty nd she just propr want mental. shouting her head off, bangin stuff around. if it was on tv like eastenders or somethin, it would be well funny, but real ppl, ur friends nd stuff, it was propr scary.


jamie lookd like he was gonna cry nd he just ran upstairs and im just like in the hallway and shes banging doors and still shouting. im like wtf. i was just gonna go but my keys nd phone were in his room, so went up to get em bt hed shut the door and must have been leaning against it. he let me in nd his face was all red nd he lookd so upset. it sounds a bit gay but just seeing him like that nearly made me cry. i sat next to him on the bed, didnt really know what to say.


prolly the first time ever ever been sat right next to him on his bed and i didnt get a hard on lol.


i never feel awkward around jamie, but just couldnt think of anything to say. he was crying a bit and had his head down, so couldnt really see his face, bt hed got drop of tears on his trackies.


i put my arm over his back and just gave him a little squeeze, it felt scary. then i was just like of fuck just do it josh u twat, nd i gave him a propr hug. he put one arm on me, and then properly startd crying, i got a lump in my throat nd tried real hard not to cry. i let go after what seemed like 5 mins, but was prolly more like 30 seconds. didnt want it to be gay. we only ever hugd once before nd that was when wed been some woods near botley when we were younger and id fell out of a well high tree nd propr fucked my ankle, i was cryin a bit and he went off to find someone bt before he ran to get help he gave me a hug. weird how ill prolly always remember that.

Friday, 13 February 2009

please god !!!

on the way back nik was askn if we wanna go to his tonight nd ben said u 'comin josh?' i was like really cool nd stuff 'yeah mite do'. he lookd well fit, hes got new hair now nd its well funky nd messy. nik & ben look well similar bt ben is getn way hotter. wud be well horny to do stuff with em together. i want them both hehe. but i know thats greedy, so please god can i just have ben? omg im getn hard just thinkn about it lol. ummm gotta go wank now :-P

Thursday, 12 February 2009

funky stripey pants

im loosin faith in nicholas cos he couldnt fix my nano. arghh. not really he did try tho. hes got some well cool stuff in his house, like lights than he can turn on nd off from his mac, its pretty smooth. id connect it to ems hairdryer nd keep turnin it off wen shes tryn dry her hair lol.


hes goin away again for the wkend, so lookn after dolce nd pepsi for him. he well trusts me now cos he said i can play on his wii if i want when hes away or just chill nd watch tv. i think i gotta refuse money if he tries to pay me this time, cos dont want him thinkn im scroungin. he was lookn well fit tonight, hed been runnin i think nd was wearin a white t, nd some trackies. could see his bulge a bit, esp when he sat down nd it all pushd out. im well sure he was lookn at my bum cos i am a propr saggy sk8r boy tonight, got some well funky stripy pants nd so gotta sag to show off :-P hehe

bad stuff magnet

havin a real bad day.... my nano has propr died :-( not sure what happened, not dropped it for ages, but just wont come on and wont charge. dad is gonna kill me. gonna see if nicholas can fix it tho.


i had to stay behind today cos got into sooo much trouble in graphics. me n jamie kept threw like 2 or 3 old paint brushes out of th windows that had all hard nd dried out, when dan had thrown like hundreds nd it was us that got caught. we were getn told off at the end, nd dan was at the window doin stupid faces nd he even did a moon lol. hes got a nice ass. wanted him to do another lol. jamie was getn all giggly nd just made it worse. im a magnet for bad stuff.


dan waited for us nd we all walked back to jamies. we were gonna go nd laze at his, but when we got there his mum was home nd he was like lets go into town. was well obv he didnt want us to go in the house nd see his mum. i used to see her like all the time, not seen her or spoke to her properly for ages. shes got another job tho now so they are ok for money and food and stuff.


got home at like 7ish nd em had cookd so was well guttd cos mine was in the bin. bitch. shes well orrible to me recently. dad is selling a car nd is all moody nd quiet, hes takin about 500000 pix of it before it goes. ffs he loves the cars more than us.

Monday, 9 February 2009

checkin me out :)

jamie is soooo annoyin. had like just 1 text in four days!! he was gonna come for food on sunday, but didnt show nd didnt email or txt or anythin. didnt matter really, cos dad had forgot anyway.

nicholas was here when i got in earlier, he's doing a website for dads car business, and dad was saying how he wanted it to look, and what info he wants on it. i said hi as soon i walked in, nd he said hi back but just look straight back at dad and carried on talking. i just sat down nd put the tv on, i play this game sometimes where i increase the volume by 1 every minute, and wait and see how long it takes dad to notice the tv is like vibrating the house down lol. i got shouted at after just like 2 minutes today lol.

when he went to get some photos, i went to the utility room left the door open, took off my trousers nd put them straight into machine (i do this like everyday normally). i was just in my undies, nd a white shirt, nd he was propr well lookin at me nd checkn me out. got a bit hard, nd so he could prolly see the shape of my doodle nd the bulging around. normally i put on my trackies or jeans, but i just wandered around the dining room in my undies, fed the fish, picked up my bag, nd stood well near nicholas. my bum was like 20cm away from him :-P he was babblin nd asking me stuff, like hows the mac book, nd he said he'd upgrade me to leopard (which is a newer version of the mac operating system), he was like 'come over whenever josh nd i'll do it for you'.... maybe he means 'do it to me' hehe. i wish.

ummm, well thats enough for now cos gotta help em with the dinner, nd not even had my wank yet.

joshxx

Thursday, 5 February 2009

£50 reward

i just earned myself fifty quid. its th first time ive ever had a fifty note. i was nearly home, nd then i saw nicholas drive past, he noticed me and stoppd, so i got in his car, nd he gave me £50. no rude comments please lol :-P

it seems a lot to feed cats for a few days, but i know hes mintd nd i did say 'no, you dont have to pay me' tho my naughty side was thinking josh u twat, dont give the money back lol. jamie could do with a neighbour like him, but on his road they are too poor to have cats lol. thats harsh, im only messin.

at least this time i did feed them every day :-)

lift home from sexy neighbour guy and earned £50 = josh a happy boy.

white mess

OMG i obv havent been wankin enough cos i woke up in the night nd my cock was pumpn milk in my undies. cant believe it... my first wet dream (even tho i kinda woke up while it was happenin), i never thoght id get one cos i wank like atleast twice a day. dont even remember havin any horny dreams, so its a bit weird. hope nothin is broken :-S

just wiped it off with a sock, but then it felt orrible cos it was thicker than normal, nd felt orrible all wet on my pants. then couldnt get back to sleep argh.

im soooo late this morning, so g/g

joshxx

Wednesday, 4 February 2009

spoke to ben for ages last night on msn :-) it was well gay, cos we were talkn about clothes, nd he said he really liked my orange tshirt with the rabbit on it. i was like arrr thanx, nd thought i should say something nice back, bt couldnt think of anything to say that didnt sound too gay :-S after a bit we went quiet, just run out of stuff to say sometimes, nd i was feeln well horny so startd just playin with my doodle, nd then it just got too rude so had to wank. was lookn at bens cute pic. the second i shot my milk i got a msg from him sayin 'what u doin?' lol.. omg i was thinkin perfect timing lol.

him and nik have had a mega argument about the second controller for the wii cos nik is blaming ben for it breaking again. they argue all the time, its mental, cos id i had a youngr brothr id be well nice to him. nik is too harsh.

me, jamie, dan and nik r gonna go cinema on friday, but i bet nik wont let ben come if they r havent sorted things out. gutted. keep dreamn about rubn his leg in the dark on back row lol. naughty me.

Tuesday, 3 February 2009

was with jamie & nik at lunch, nd ben came over to our table. nik was well orrible to him nd told him 2 fuck off for like no reason. but he stayd anyway nd sat next to me. i sed 'hi benny' nd must have sounded like a well twat cos my voice went a bit weird. jamie had 2 bags of crisps bt no actual food, i know its cos of money cos he always used to eat loads. he always makes out like hes not hungry. i had bread n butter pudding with custard nd i knew i wouldnt eat it, nd just give it to jamie. he propr eat it up well quick. hes having a bad time still with his mum. just hope hes gonna be ok.

we were takn th piss out of this boy who has a weird shaped head, nd every1 calls him eggy. its a bit wrong bt he is a twat nd he robbed some brand new adidas superstars from danny last yr. i was sat with my legs at either side of th table leg, nd bens knee kept catching my leg a few times. stupid bt it was really horny, nd i got so hard my cock was propr twitchn. had to adjust it like five times. i know ben was lookn, cos when i had my hand down my undies, he lookd at me and gave me a well nice look with his eyes. kinda like i-wanna-lick-every-cm-of-ur-body-josh type of look lol. he then kept rockn back on the chair, nd his shirt kept liftn up nd i cud well see his stomach nd his belly button.

bell went nd so we left. he didnt say much to me, bt im pretty sure he was like gayin me up. ffs wot shall i do now!?! :-S

Sunday, 25 January 2009

the only one

just been on msn for like 2 hrs hopn ben would come online, but he didnt :-( got a bad feeln ive missd my chance with him. gonna end up keepn v plates for ever :-( i must be like the only one in my year that hasnt done it yet.

anyway, gotta go, gotta empty the milk b4 bed :-P

joshxx

i'm a criminal

went to frankie & bennys at ozone earlier, me, jamie, nik and dan, it was for dans birthday, nd his mum dropped us off, paid, and picked us up. result :-) i had the best burger ever, 'manhattan' it was huge. we had to wait ages for the food, nd kept messin around and annoyin the waitress. there was a pretty fit waiter workin, but he didnt serve us.

went to the bowling place next door, but just messd around and didnt do any actual bowling. place was full of fit boys tho, hope heaven is as good :-P there we two guys who lookd a bit indie, both were well fit, one was like extreme sagging and had some well fit red undies on show, and a nice ripe bum. yum yum. think jamie saw me lookn... whoops :-P

afterwards we all went back to dans, even tho dan is a good friend and ive known him for ages, ive never been inside his house before. it felt kinda strange, but also a bit horny seeing his bedroom for the first time. sounds mental i know lol. his room was v small, nd crammed with stuff. there was loadsa crap, cds, books, clothes nd stuff on the floor, including undies. i know its wrong but when we on his wii, i pickd up a pair of his pants from the floor, and stuffed it down my jeans. no one noticed, but it made my bulge look massive so was hopn dan wouldnt get suspicious. i did feel well bad, but horny too. it was makn me get a bit hard with the feel of the scrunched up undies touching my cock.

we all went at about 4:00 and when we were leaving i saw jamie lookn at my bulge, he was prob thinkn wtf!?! walked home on my own, then as soon as i got upstairs, just had to wank. the undies are white, and pretty plain, but when id finished they had a nice milk splatter on them :-P

do feel a bit bad for stealing, i know its hardly the crime of the century, but dan is nice, nd i shouldnt have took them. just gotta work out if i should try and put them back or just keep them. arghhh my life is so fukd up. im always doin stuff i shouldnt :-S


to the ppl that keep emailn me telling me to put pix of jamie, nik & ben on my blog, it just aint gonna happen. ive not got any shirtless/naked/speedo pix of them anyway, nd if i had, i still wouldnt post them on the internet cos its just not right. jamie has got bebo but i dont wanna put the address cos someone might tell him about my blog.

sorry xx

BUT - if ya send me enuff amazon certs to my email like it says in my profile i might send ya some pvt pics of us

Tuesday, 20 January 2009

thats pretty gay right ?

im so happy cos chatd to ben on msn for ages, even missd hollyoaks :-S we were just chatn about random stuff, nothing gay, but he was sending me pics of tops and other clothes he wants from usc and french connection, nd thats pretty gay right? i wantd to ask if he enjoyd niks party, but thought it sounded a bit obvious. he asked me if was goin out with any1, i was like "no, nt really" then he was like "what u mean, not really?" i just said there was someone i liked, then he was askin well loadsa questions, nd i was well careful not to say she, her, or anything - and just kept saying "they". quite hard keepn that going lol.

jamie came round so signed off cos didnt want him wondering why im chatn to him. jamie is havin a real bad time recently cos his mum is propa drunk 24/7 these days, not funny drunk, like scary drunk. shes gonna get sackd i reckon, then they'll b fuckd, but didnt say that to jamie. sometimes i feel a bit bad wen he comes over, nd like got my ipod, macbook, nd loads of stuff, and he doesnt get that much stuff from his mum.

we did some geography hw together, well, jamie didnt do much apart from copy mine, nd sit on the floor lookn moody and actually lookn pretty fit. he kept putn his hands down his trackies and just holding it. not like adjusting it in his pants, just holding it. couldnt help lookn. and then i told him it wud fall off if he kept playn with it. he

Sunday, 18 January 2009

r u awake ?

i had the best night yesterday, was like soooo horny - its makin me get hard just thinkn about it again. niks party was well good, was late cos jamies mum wouldnt drive us so we had to walk. we took 4 bottles of becks and half a bottle of vodka and nik was like well grateful cos not everyone had brought drink. lucy & emma were like well sucking up to me cos they are like addicted 2 vodka. ben (niks youngr bro) kept askin me to get him a drink but nik didnt want him havin any. jamie & dan were a bit borin and jusying playin on his wii.

there were about 14 people, most from my year but some older too that nik knows. someone got cider on jamies top nd he went mental and ended up going well early. i stayed until the end when it was just 6 of us, i was soooo tired but was well polite nd helped tidy stuff up.

nik said i could stay so was on this thin air mattress type thing in their guest room and lucy was in the double bed, she was lookn sooo ruff nd knew she wud be sick... she was - all over the pillow nd some on the floor. yak. nik phoned her mum and her dad collected her lol. girls just cannot take drink. bet nik will get into trouble cos knowing his mum & dad, the sheets were probably like hand made silk, nd the carpet hand made finest wool lol.

when lucy went i just went back to bed on the air mattress thing nd got undressed apart from boxers. didnt wanna get undressed in the room with lucy incase she hid my clothes or something. was just thinkn how fit jamie looked tonight (b4 the cider all over his thsirt anyway lol) and started feeln a bit horny so startd to wank, the house was well quiet, nd i was just thinkn bout where to cum nd what to wipe it up with when the door handle went nd the door opened. i was like omg, hard on went small instantly but it was just ben stood in the doorway. he was like sorry josh, emma is in my bed nd shes snoring nd i cant sleep. he walked over to the bed and i was like no, theres puke on the covers!!! he put the lamp on and just sat on the edge of the bed, he always looks quite skinny, but his bod is pretty well defined for his age, nd he was wearing just these little red undies with yellow stripes. i was lookn up at him, nd could see the outline of his bulge.

he got a blanket nd his pillow and layed on the carpet next to me, he startd asking me what happened to lucy but dont really remember the convo cos must have drifted to sleep.

then next thing i remember i like woke up in the night nd ben was in the bed with me!! like seriously! he was facing away from me nd a bit curled up and taking all the room and most of the blankets. it was v cold nd i like pulld some of the blanket back. it felt a bit gay, and v horny nd then i just couldnt get back to sleep. hes a bit youngr than me, but he is pretty cute, nd just being in bed next to a boy was pretty horny, nd got me rock hard. the more i thought bout it, the harder i got nd my cock was like twitchin nd stuff. i was rubbing it and squeezin it a bit, nd pulled it out of my undies. felt a bit wrong, but didnt care cos was just too horny. was playn with it and rubbing it for ages, nd ben moved and wriggled a bit, nd he must have been like just a few cms away from me. he was still on his side facing the window, and i was facing the same way. i know its bad, but i just pushed a bit towards him to press my cock onto his back, nd when it touched his back omg i nearly came right then. it was really warm and my cock had never been so hard. never really touched my cock on any1 before, felt nice against a warm body.

he was curled up a little bit and so i moved a bit further down the bed to press it onto his bum through his undies. i was tryn to be real quiet nd as i slide down nearer to him, i pushd my nob against him, but omg it was his actual bum cheeks, hed not got any undies on!!!! i just layed v still, my heart was propr beatn well quick nd my cock was twitchin everywhere. i was well scared nd just laid still. then i felt him move a bit, and he seemed to move back, like further towards me, nd my cock was propra pressing in between his cheeks. then he said really quietly 'josh' nd i just laid still nd didnt say anything, he was like 'josh, u awake?' still didnt say anything. was feeln really scared. i just laid still, nd ben pushd back a bit more. i so nearly came at that point, wud have squirtd all over his bum nd near his hole. he put his arm behind nd touchd my cock. dunno why but i panicd nd just rolled over and faced the other way. could sitll feel my heart beating like fifty times faster than normal. ben said again 'josh, r u awake?' but i still didnt say anything.

didnt really get much sleep but must have dozed off cos when i woke up, ben had gone nd it was light.

got up just before 8, and nik was already up and playing on his wii. we got coco pops nd just chilled. i was feeln pretty weird bout last night, and kinda worried ben would say something to nik. i phoned dad but no one answered, so knew id end up walkin home. just when i was bout to go, got my trainers but couldnt find my hoody. went back upstairs nd when i got to the top ben was just walkn out of th bathroom, in his lil red undies. he lookd propr sleepy, his hair was everywhere and all messd up (lookd kinda funky lol) and he just said 'hey josh' nd smiled a bit nd then went into his bedroom. i didnt say anything. found my hoody nd went back downstairs, was sayin bye to nik nd was kinda hoping ben would come downstairs cos i wanted to say something, even if it was just bye, but he didnt, so just walked home.

was sooo tired when i got home, so went str8 back to bed lol. of course had a wank first lol. all that horny stuff nd pressing it on bens body must have made my balls make extra sperms cos there was well loads of milk when it shot.

got up at 1:30 nd feel a bit weird now cos i just wimped out with ben, and cud probably have had a well horny time wiv him. dunno why i bottle it cos im always hard nd think about boys like 24/7, then go and mess up on something like this. im so crap sometimes.

wish i had some1 to talk to, but its not the kinda thing i can tell jamie, and deffo not nik... 'hi nik, i wanna fuck ur bro, do u think he likes me?' hmmmmm.

crap josh
x

Friday, 16 January 2009

party

feeln well happy cos i got invited to niks party, popular me :-P jamie got me to ask nik if he could come, nik was like yeah sure just bring drink. will be well easy for jamie to get some, cos his mum buys so much she cant tell if hes robbed any lol.


its on saturday at his house (house, more like mansion - hes pretty minted), nd loads of ppl from our form r gonna be there.


also happy cos i kinda got a phone again, nicholas next door setup the printer on my mac, hes well nice, nd i showd him the fone to see if he could fix it. hes well good with gadets, and good with his hands hehe. he didnt know how to fix it, but gave me a fone as a kinda thank u for feedn his cats! its a nokia 6230, so its a bit borin, but its got a cam nd atleast it works. i do actually think he mite be a bit gay cos when he was round id took my belt off nd my jeans were propr sagging, nd was was deffo checkn out my ass. or maybe he was thinkn someone buy that boy a belt lol. im gonna make well effort to look hot th next time he comes round, nd propr tease him, just to see if he is a bummer :-P

Thursday, 15 January 2009

the early josh catches the worm

omg gotta tell every1 this, i got up early to go nd feed dolce and pepsi (cats) for nicholas cos hes gone away (used to be dolce & gabbana but gabbana died) nd saw the paperboy who was proper well fit, like incredibly tasty, nd he was doin a piss next to the hedge nd i saw his doodle!!! he saw me lookn nd just turnd away a bit, so couldnt see it, but cud still see him pissing. was well horny, even tho ive already done a wank this mornin, feeln so horny nd cant get that image out of my head, gotta have another one now lol.


joshxx

Thursday, 8 January 2009

Saw

went to jamies last night, thought it was just gonna be us, but dan was already there. jamies mum was just goin out, she lookd pretty nice (if i were str8...lol) and shes well generous, got us 2 beers each again. dan had got saw 4, which was like omg disgusting. i was grossed out by the few 2 mins, where there was an autoposy and they cut a mans brain out. yak.


when ever we watch stuff at jamies, i like it when we r in his bedroom, just so i can lay on his bed nd pillow, but we were in the lounge nd i didnt even get to sit next to him cos he was on the sofa with dan, and i was all alone in the chair. it was cold nd we had all the lights out, which makes it more scary.


we drank the beers well quick, nd jamie got a bottle of vodka, we had vodka nd coke but had to put water back in the vodka so his mum didnt notice we'd had any lol. i was feeln well tipsy nd it always makes me horny. kept wonderin if jamie had still got my blue undies, nd that he could have been wearin them right now! i still wear his white cks sometimes, but mainly use em when wanking. was hopin somethin would happen, a 3 way with jamie and dan would be well hot. of course nothing did :-(


dan is pretty nice looking, not in a drop dead gorgeous way, but hes got really nice eyes, and nice lips - perfect complexion. he has well nice hair too, like always messy and spiky, the just-got-out-of-bed-look that blatantly took 20 minutes to achieve. hes got a permanent butter wouldn't melt look which just adds to the cuteness. he does go around saying everything is 'gay' tho, like, 'god i hate maths its so gay' or 'im not eating that apple, its so gay'. v annoying.

Tuesday, 6 January 2009

soo stupid !

ive done somethin a bit metal nd its really worryn me, cos there is this boy in leeds that i chat to sometimes, hes gotta mac too and so we went on ichat. we normally just talk about macs and music and stuff, but last night we messn about nd stuff but he kept shown his bum (which was well tasty btw) nd he kept askin me to get undressed. cos i was horny, nd id been rubbin my cock under the desk, i did get naked (except for undies). then he kept getn his nob out and wankn it on the cam, it was well long and just makin me too horny, nd so just pulled my undies off and wanked 2 :-( ashamed


main thing is wot if hes recorded it or something and uploaded it to the internet. i dont want every1 seein my doodle :-( especially cos after id cum it went a bit small and i left the cam on and we chatd :-(


couldnt sleep last night nd still worried - any apple tech guys, please tell me cud he have recorded me?? i soooo nearly asked nicholas but just dont want him askin questions about why i need to know that, nd then dad finding out the macbook has a built in cam.
please help me ppl!
xx

Monday, 5 January 2009

josh translation guide

i get lots of messages from american boys, so i just gotta explain some words i use...

wanking = masturbating (like jacking off your cock)
nob = cock
doodle = cock (like from the simpsons movie, barts doodle :-P
pants = underwear
boxer briefs = undies that are tight fitting, but more like boxer shorts
milk = spunk/cum
bacon = 4skin

i think thats everythin... ill add more if any1 else gets confused.

and sorry to every1 that say i should use propa sentences nd capital letters. it just aint gonna happen lol

joshxx

Sunday, 4 January 2009

fuck and cover

ive decided i need a lock on my door!! em just walked straight in again this morning to put the hot water on (for some mental reason the cupboard nd switch are in my room) nd i was layed on my bed just in my undies, with a hard, just about to start wankin. every1 thinks that they can just walk in without knocking and im getn well pissed off. i asked dad for a lock and he says no incase theres a fire. and kept saying what do you get upto in your room that you need to lock the door? i was gonna just say 'wanking off every day' to shock him, but id get in mega trouble.


also having ur sister walk in ur room kinda spoils ur mood for wanking lol. id robbed a rubber from ems wardrobe last night, and i was gonna try putn it on - just to see wot it feels like. toby, this boy i know online, said he'd tried it, nd im just well curious to see what its like.


went to leamington spa today with dad & em to see my aunt (actually thats a total lie cos she isnt my aunt and isnt even related to us, but for some reason ive always been told to call her auntie barbara and not just barbara). she used to clean for my gran, and dad has known her forever. we went into the town afterwards and i got some well fit duck & cover jeans from house of fraser, but even fitter was the boy who served us. he'd got blonde hair, a bit messy, and real nice eyes and lips. im sure he was checkn me out too :-P sexy me! when i was tryn the jeans on, i well wanted him to cum into the changing room with me, or even better cum into my mouth :-P as u can tell im on heat cos missed a few wanks this week.


better go... got things to do :-P


joshxx