r u awake ?

i had the best night yesterday, was like soooo horny - its makin me get hard just thinkn about it again. niks party was well good, was late cos jamies mum wouldnt drive us so we had to walk. we took 4 bottles of becks and half a bottle of vodka and nik was like well grateful cos not everyone had brought drink. lucy & emma were like well sucking up to me cos they are like addicted 2 vodka. ben (niks youngr bro) kept askin me to get him a drink but nik didnt want him havin any. jamie & dan were a bit borin and jusying playin on his wii.

there were about 14 people, most from my year but some older too that nik knows. someone got cider on jamies top nd he went mental and ended up going well early. i stayed until the end when it was just 6 of us, i was soooo tired but was well polite nd helped tidy stuff up.

nik said i could stay so was on this thin air mattress type thing in their guest room and lucy was in the double bed, she was lookn sooo ruff nd knew she wud be sick... she was - all over the pillow nd some on the floor. yak. nik phoned her mum and her dad collected her lol. girls just cannot take drink. bet nik will get into trouble cos knowing his mum & dad, the sheets were probably like hand made silk, nd the carpet hand made finest wool lol.

when lucy went i just went back to bed on the air mattress thing nd got undressed apart from boxers. didnt wanna get undressed in the room with lucy incase she hid my clothes or something. was just thinkn how fit jamie looked tonight (b4 the cider all over his thsirt anyway lol) and started feeln a bit horny so startd to wank, the house was well quiet, nd i was just thinkn bout where to cum nd what to wipe it up with when the door handle went nd the door opened. i was like omg, hard on went small instantly but it was just ben stood in the doorway. he was like sorry josh, emma is in my bed nd shes snoring nd i cant sleep. he walked over to the bed and i was like no, theres puke on the covers!!! he put the lamp on and just sat on the edge of the bed, he always looks quite skinny, but his bod is pretty well defined for his age, nd he was wearing just these little red undies with yellow stripes. i was lookn up at him, nd could see the outline of his bulge.

he got a blanket nd his pillow and layed on the carpet next to me, he startd asking me what happened to lucy but dont really remember the convo cos must have drifted to sleep.

then next thing i remember i like woke up in the night nd ben was in the bed with me!! like seriously! he was facing away from me nd a bit curled up and taking all the room and most of the blankets. it was v cold nd i like pulld some of the blanket back. it felt a bit gay, and v horny nd then i just couldnt get back to sleep. hes a bit youngr than me, but he is pretty cute, nd just being in bed next to a boy was pretty horny, nd got me rock hard. the more i thought bout it, the harder i got nd my cock was like twitchin nd stuff. i was rubbing it and squeezin it a bit, nd pulled it out of my undies. felt a bit wrong, but didnt care cos was just too horny. was playn with it and rubbing it for ages, nd ben moved and wriggled a bit, nd he must have been like just a few cms away from me. he was still on his side facing the window, and i was facing the same way. i know its bad, but i just pushed a bit towards him to press my cock onto his back, nd when it touched his back omg i nearly came right then. it was really warm and my cock had never been so hard. never really touched my cock on any1 before, felt nice against a warm body.

he was curled up a little bit and so i moved a bit further down the bed to press it onto his bum through his undies. i was tryn to be real quiet nd as i slide down nearer to him, i pushd my nob against him, but omg it was his actual bum cheeks, hed not got any undies on!!!! i just layed v still, my heart was propr beatn well quick nd my cock was twitchin everywhere. i was well scared nd just laid still. then i felt him move a bit, and he seemed to move back, like further towards me, nd my cock was propra pressing in between his cheeks. then he said really quietly 'josh' nd i just laid still nd didnt say anything, he was like 'josh, u awake?' still didnt say anything. was feeln really scared. i just laid still, nd ben pushd back a bit more. i so nearly came at that point, wud have squirtd all over his bum nd near his hole. he put his arm behind nd touchd my cock. dunno why but i panicd nd just rolled over and faced the other way. could sitll feel my heart beating like fifty times faster than normal. ben said again 'josh, r u awake?' but i still didnt say anything.

didnt really get much sleep but must have dozed off cos when i woke up, ben had gone nd it was light.

got up just before 8, and nik was already up and playing on his wii. we got coco pops nd just chilled. i was feeln pretty weird bout last night, and kinda worried ben would say something to nik. i phoned dad but no one answered, so knew id end up walkin home. just when i was bout to go, got my trainers but couldnt find my hoody. went back upstairs nd when i got to the top ben was just walkn out of th bathroom, in his lil red undies. he lookd propr sleepy, his hair was everywhere and all messd up (lookd kinda funky lol) and he just said 'hey josh' nd smiled a bit nd then went into his bedroom. i didnt say anything. found my hoody nd went back downstairs, was sayin bye to nik nd was kinda hoping ben would come downstairs cos i wanted to say something, even if it was just bye, but he didnt, so just walked home.

was sooo tired when i got home, so went str8 back to bed lol. of course had a wank first lol. all that horny stuff nd pressing it on bens body must have made my balls make extra sperms cos there was well loads of milk when it shot.

got up at 1:30 nd feel a bit weird now cos i just wimped out with ben, and cud probably have had a well horny time wiv him. dunno why i bottle it cos im always hard nd think about boys like 24/7, then go and mess up on something like this. im so crap sometimes.

wish i had some1 to talk to, but its not the kinda thing i can tell jamie, and deffo not nik... 'hi nik, i wanna fuck ur bro, do u think he likes me?' hmmmmm.

crap josh
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