scary stuff

omg only just got up which is well not like me, cos im an early birdie normally. got in late tho, cos was at jamies until after 1ish. his mum is propr a wino agin. she came in and at first was nice, a bit ott but nice, she was givin me a hug, nd her tits were like all in my face (it was gross lol). shes quite fit, but shes a she lol. jamie had forgot to record casualty nd she just propr want mental. shouting her head off, bangin stuff around. if it was on tv like eastenders or somethin, it would be well funny, but real ppl, ur friends nd stuff, it was propr scary.


jamie lookd like he was gonna cry nd he just ran upstairs and im just like in the hallway and shes banging doors and still shouting. im like wtf. i was just gonna go but my keys nd phone were in his room, so went up to get em bt hed shut the door and must have been leaning against it. he let me in nd his face was all red nd he lookd so upset. it sounds a bit gay but just seeing him like that nearly made me cry. i sat next to him on the bed, didnt really know what to say.


prolly the first time ever ever been sat right next to him on his bed and i didnt get a hard on lol.


i never feel awkward around jamie, but just couldnt think of anything to say. he was crying a bit and had his head down, so couldnt really see his face, bt hed got drop of tears on his trackies.


i put my arm over his back and just gave him a little squeeze, it felt scary. then i was just like of fuck just do it josh u twat, nd i gave him a propr hug. he put one arm on me, and then properly startd crying, i got a lump in my throat nd tried real hard not to cry. i let go after what seemed like 5 mins, but was prolly more like 30 seconds. didnt want it to be gay. we only ever hugd once before nd that was when wed been some woods near botley when we were younger and id fell out of a well high tree nd propr fucked my ankle, i was cryin a bit and he went off to find someone bt before he ran to get help he gave me a hug. weird how ill prolly always remember that.