Amazon

ok so im getn a few emails about the Amazon thing, nd guess some ppl think im a greedy twat. it was just a cool thing i saw on another blog, nd doesnt mean i expect ppl to tip. bt thanx 2 the ppl that have left a tip, even to the boy that gave me 10p :-) it all helps, cos life is expensive.

maybe ill put some pics up of the things i buy, so u can see how im spending ur money hehe :-P i promise not to waste it on toppin up my fone, jelly beans (which r my absolute fave), itunes, kfc nd clothes. actually thats a complete lie, cos that is exactly where th money will b wasted... i mean spent :-D

cold showers

well turns out i might not have broken the macbook, cud be a fault with a 'logic-board' or 'invertor' (what ever they are lol). went over to see nicholas last night, i didnt go commando (all ur dirty ppl that said i shuold tut tut), bt did wear my best pants nd had my jeans propr well low showin my bum, nd just held up at the front by my bulge. when i was walkin down the drive em was comin in an said 'who the fuck tought u how to dress' i was like wotever lol.

i like goin to see him, bt hate his door, cos there is a bell bt it either doesnt work or he never heres it, nd i never know how long to wait b4 pressin it again. was stood outside for ages, then tried knockin on the door with this metal thing above the letter box. then i think he saw me thru the window so he let me it. he was doin ironing, nd had shirts everywhere, he has well nice clothes, was lookn for some undies bt didnt see any lol. we went into his office nd he had a look at the mac book. i was sat next to him nd just lookn around at stuff on his desk, hed got a dvd called 'cold showers' or 'cold shower' - sounds well gay, bt then he put some papers over it nd couldnt really see it. sounds well like a porno dvd to me. he was well nice about it tho nd said i cud leave it with him for an hour.

when he brought it back over, he even told dad it was a known fault with some macbooks, nd wasnt anything id done. yay for me :-P he is gonna take it to the apple shop for me now cos he doesnt have new parts to fix it.

i deleted all the pix nd stuff cos not got any blank cds cos dont want nosey twats in apple store lookn at all my msn chats nd my pix.

thanx to ever1 for helpn nd sending msgs :-)

macbook=fcked

im in soooo muchh trouble :-( my macbook is fuckd, nd dad knows. he keeps telln me off for not been careful with it, nd saying im too rough, nd now the screen keeps like flashing nd flickering. he said if it breaks completely i cant have a new one cos im careless. hes such a twat nd always blames me for stuff, when i have lookd after it and never dropd it or anything. he was sayn your tv, ipod, phone, now laptop... 'you dont have any respect for your possessions, things that i work hard to pay for'. he got well angry nd his face went all red, he doesnt normally get like this nd so i know ive mega pissd him off.

gonna ask nicholas if he can fix it, cos ill die if it breaks nd im not allowed a new one. i fed his cats all last week, so he prolly wont mind lookn at it. im gonna go over 2nite cos he came back on sun, ill propr have my jean sagging nd wear some of my best undies, that shud help lol.

mental things

ppl say boys have brains in their pants, well i think my brain was just left out all together. done something mega stupid nd worried dad is gonna find out im gay :-S theres someone on the net that emails me a lot, we chat sometimes nd he seems nice nd sends me some hot pix, nd links to vids and stuff. we were on msn for a bit tnoght nd he said hed give me cash if i posted him some undies. feels well embarrasin even writing it, bt to see if he was real i said send the money first, nd i tried to get a pay pal but couldnt. i sent him my address to post the cash now i keep thinkn what if he turns up nd tells dad what ive been doing and that im gay and stuff :-(

cant get back to sleep nd just wish id stop doin mental things.

jelly babies

cant write much cos not supposed to be on comp but got a lift from nicholas this morning, nd made him drive to get jamie too lol. nicholas was wearn a suit, nd lookd pretty buff. he normally just wears like funky stuff, even for his work, so it was a bit horny to see him all smart. he lookd like a celbrity lol. i was been a bit nosey nd lookn in his car, nd hed got jelly babies in the glovebox. yum. gg joshxx

scary stuff

omg only just got up which is well not like me, cos im an early birdie normally. got in late tho, cos was at jamies until after 1ish. his mum is propr a wino agin. she came in and at first was nice, a bit ott but nice, she was givin me a hug, nd her tits were like all in my face (it was gross lol). shes quite fit, but shes a she lol. jamie had forgot to record casualty nd she just propr want mental. shouting her head off, bangin stuff around. if it was on tv like eastenders or somethin, it would be well funny, but real ppl, ur friends nd stuff, it was propr scary.


jamie lookd like he was gonna cry nd he just ran upstairs and im just like in the hallway and shes banging doors and still shouting. im like wtf. i was just gonna go but my keys nd phone were in his room, so went up to get em bt hed shut the door and must have been leaning against it. he let me in nd his face was all red nd he lookd so upset. it sounds a bit gay but just seeing him like that nearly made me cry. i sat next to him on the bed, didnt really know what to say.


prolly the first time ever ever been sat right next to him on his bed and i didnt get a hard on lol.


i never feel awkward around jamie, but just couldnt think of anything to say. he was crying a bit and had his head down, so couldnt really see his face, bt hed got drop of tears on his trackies.


i put my arm over his back and just gave him a little squeeze, it felt scary. then i was just like of fuck just do it josh u twat, nd i gave him a propr hug. he put one arm on me, and then properly startd crying, i got a lump in my throat nd tried real hard not to cry. i let go after what seemed like 5 mins, but was prolly more like 30 seconds. didnt want it to be gay. we only ever hugd once before nd that was when wed been some woods near botley when we were younger and id fell out of a well high tree nd propr fucked my ankle, i was cryin a bit and he went off to find someone bt before he ran to get help he gave me a hug. weird how ill prolly always remember that.

please god !!!

on the way back nik was askn if we wanna go to his tonight nd ben said u 'comin josh?' i was like really cool nd stuff 'yeah mite do'. he lookd well fit, hes got new hair now nd its well funky nd messy. nik & ben look well similar bt ben is getn way hotter. wud be well horny to do stuff with em together. i want them both hehe. but i know thats greedy, so please god can i just have ben? omg im getn hard just thinkn about it lol. ummm gotta go wank now :-P